A new focus

I attended the Midwest Craft Caucus this weekend and I realized from listening and talking to fellow crafters that I had lost sight of my voice and why am I doing what I am.  I have been questioning a lot lately why I am doing what I do and even considering giving up my quest for my creative outlet.  I have never been able to explain what I make now, it was a lot easier for me when I made pottery - I knew what my focus was and why I made my body of work.  With sewing it hasn't come as easy, I am trying to find what makes me unique - sewing late at night is one of those things.  At every craft show I have done someone has asked me "do you make everything here?" or commented that how do you find the time to do all of this.  At the caucus this weekend a presenter mentioned that they could tell if a applicant had made all of the things in their booth by the volume of work done - I took a look at my inventory - I make every single item myself and I wondered if they would think that of me.  I work all day, take care of my kids in the evenings, and when they fall asleep (my kids are night owls and go to sleep late) I get to sew.  Most nights I start sewing at 10:30pm, I sew until 12:30 or 1:00am on week nights and 2:00 - 3:00 on the weekends, I wake up for my day job at 6:15am.  Do I think I am the only one out there, no and I hope to find others out there like me.  For now, I have decided to focus on my late night escapades and changed my tag line to  "confessions of a late night sewing mama" - stay tuned, it should get interesting!